a couple of guys being dudes

i have now been apart from hugh for thirty-three hours and it is really weird. since i am out of town for work, brent has taken off of work to watch the boy. they are both doing great. part of me thinks "hmm, i must not be necessary for hugh's day-to-day happiness" and another part of me is so proud of my excellent boy product, "wow, he is so adaptable".

i've known this for awhile about hugh, he just rolls with the punches and constantly amazes me with his flexibility. my boy is growing up and starting to figure out how to be his own entity within the world at large.

this is only one small step in his maturation. one day, not too long from now, he'll be off to pre-school and then kindergarten and then grade school, etc. there will come a day when i am not the center of his world and his constant. this is such a weird and disconcerting realization for me and part of my maturation as a mother. these few days are only the start of him cutting the proverbial apron strings.

i want to see him flourish and become his own person, someone whose identity is not contingent on me. but for now, and for the forseable future, i'm going to hold him tight, not so fast schmoopie, it's not time for you to make a break for it.